Dark still night. The moon reflects rays from the sun giving only a faint light to blanket the sleeping creation down below. Water dances across smooth stones between the banks it is bound to performing a breathtaking act. The stars scattered above in an elaborate display. All in His perfect time.

20 years upon the face of this Earth. A new something learned everyday. 168,192,000 breaths breathed in my life time. I can only hope that a fraction of those breaths have exalted my Father. Interactions with over 7,000 souls in my time here and I pray that I did enough to let them know they are loved, enough to worship in eternity with every one of them. 

Thoughts run through my mind like the wind that tangles my hair, slowly then all at once. In the upcoming years of my existence I long to know You deeper Jesus. To run the tips of my fingers along the flowers You have planted in the Your garden of love for me. To lay silent in You presence, to feel Your breath in my lungs. To take the time to stop and count every new bloom and acknowledge its growth. To see that all of creation lifts its head up to their creator and so will I. To see that the You planted lavender under the window seal of my heart because you knew it would draw me near to you. To try and comprehend that You designed my heart so You know every feature, even the unpleasant ones. To understand that even the tiniest of wildflowers that sprouts up out of adoration of You Father, brings immense joy to Your heart. 

I am just a vapor, a breath of Yours in a world that is choked by death but you Father are eternal. You have a place for me, a home with You in eternity. I in return will live my life for You. I will exalt your name above my own. My whisper in time is Yours. My hands and feet belong to You Jesus, use them to advance Your kingdom. My eyes are Yours father. Help me see You in each soul I encounter, each one You scarified Yourself to save. Help me see characteristics of You in every detail. My mind is Yours, renew it with Your word, Your sweet sweet promises. Let Your voice be the one I recognize as my shepherd, the one I cling to. Oh my heart, my heart belongs to You. Continue to break my it for what breaks Yours even when it hurts. Use it to love Your children and love them well. Do what You want with me Father, my life is Yours. 

I seek You in my 20th rotation around the sun, let this be our year, the year I fall deeper in love with You and Your ways. You Father are in control of my time in existence. Help my somber life become a vibrant expression of Your love. Let Your garden take root in my soul, sprout up through my veins, and bloom in my heart. Teach me to love Your children like You do. Father, You are the one I love. I will worship You in adoration now and into all of eternity. Anoint my 20th blink in time and let it be a sacrifice upon an alter for Your name.